I AM an ARTIST!

Today, I begin the book The Artist’s Way — A Spiritual Path to Higher Creativity by Julia Cameron. I read this book almost a decade ago. Recently, a voice inside nudged me to read it again. Two nights ago I pulled it off the shelf into plain view. It was tempting, but not quite. Today, with a huge sense of relief I open the cover and find myself devouring the introduction. Like a warm drink on this nippy day, I instantly feel comforted… and validated… I’m not going crazy… I AM an ARTIST… the child in me is screaming with glee.

Tears fall on the pages. It is time for this journey. Do you know how I can tell? Because, with my bright pink marker, I highlight every word that resonates with me. (Normally, I don’t dare bend the cover of my books never mind write in them.) Pink everywhere…. And I just signed my name right on the personal contract page included in the book. I even dated the damn thing. Ha! So there. AND, I didn’t go buy a new fancy journal for my ‘morning pages’. Nope, I just pulled out one of the many barely-started journals, tore out the used pages, crossed out the existing title and am about to do my daily assignment… 3 handwritten pages of emptying my thoughts onto paper.

I’m happy to say the perfectionist in me is right ticked off. That’s okay. She hasn’t been my favourite person lately.

I feel free… and excited. Perhaps this is why work isn’t lining up at my door. There’s something more important for me to be doing right now.

I’ll keep you posted.