Take me, Take ME!

photo credit: paulbence photography

We have our plans for life but then life lives us. My day yesterday was not as I expected. At one point, I found myself on my knees praying… for guidance, clarity, strength… something… ANYTHING!

My world has been swirling lately. I’m changing on the inside and everything around me isn’t. Or maybe it’s the other way around. I cannot be sure. Either way, I’ve felt confused and alone. Tears have been plentiful. Questions have plagued me.

Why? How? What next?

Things I once loved I don’t anymore. Work that once fueled me doesn’t interest me. Clothes that once fit hang awkwardly. Everywhere I look, there is a mismatch of energies. Nothing feels stable. Nothing is for sure.

The child in me runs for the hills arms in the air offering herself to the angels. Take me, take me!

“Not so quick,” they reply. “Your earthly work has only begun.”

Shit, I say…