Twig of Clarity
I’ve decided to run the June journey from the journey site. So over the next week, I’ll be preparing it for our Pay it Forward Journey. What fun it is to look at new photos and ‘prepare the soil’ for something new. Energy swirls inside me as I do. But the best part????
I went back and reread parts of last October’s journey on self-nurture. WOW, what a beautiful and heartwarming journey that was — not that I didn’t know it at the time, but somehow where I am right now highlights that for me. I realize how important a journey it is. As I reread my own words, my gaze softens, almost blurs, and my heart opens. This twig of clarity emerges.
Paula you have not offered yourself the gift of self-nurture lately.
The last few weeks have been tough on me. As you know, ever since my concert, I’ve been highly uninspired, which has led me to question, doubt and judge many things in my life. It makes sense that after such a hi-light of an event, there would be time required for re-balancing and re-integrating. So I’ve been doing that… well, sorta. But, honestly, I haven’t allowed the self-nurture part of it. I’ve been judging my process, thinking I should feel differently, wishing I could just ‘get past this’, and worrying that something might be wrong with my physical body as it aches and pains its way along this path.
I feel heavy just telling you. No wonder I don’t feel rejuvenated despite going through the motions (and emotions) of ‘downtime’. (Now I too dislike the word ‘downtime’.)
Aaahhh, today is a new day. A day of renewal. (’Renewal’ is a better word…) I feel the breath of life re-enter my body as I type.
Thank you for clarity… if only just a twig of it.